inside-out

Growing older everyday
Never thought
It would be this way
Last night
I saw your face
Visions of my past
Can never be erased
Trying to replace

Did I escape
Or am I hiding
From the emptiness
That I left behind me
Self destruction
Mind and body
Finding pleasure
Still inviting
In the end
This me
Good enough
We shall see

can’t turn off the light

it keeps me awake

even though its not bright

darkness of mine

holds me tight

Locked out of the garden
Too many years ago
Many times I’ve tried
To build my own
But all of my efforts
Always turn to stone
Out in the cold
I continue growing old
No answers
Questions unknown

all of these dreams

what do they mean

why must you visit me

in my sleep

Here comes the pain
Try to meditate
Make it go away
Coming back for me
Can’t concentrate
How long can I feel this way
Is it my fault

its a dream to start over

but there is no where left to go

nothing here is vacant

no place to call home

can’t talk about what i have

because you have not

can’t breathe easy

while you suffocate

i can’t swim

but you’re the one drowning

i have eaten

from the tree

exposed

naked for all to see

feeling sick

want to sleep

not forever

just until

i can breath

underwater

feeling weak

losing focus

soon i will leave

back again

without relief

feeling numb

incomplete thoughts

empty speech

all of these words

mean nothing to me